I’ve watched the Flashpoint TV series and one of the phrases that stuck with me is “We meet people in the worst 20 minutes of their lives.” This applies to me quite often. I work as a critical care nurse. I am literally with people for the most stressful time in their life. But I’m damn good at my job. I some days have to remind myself of this. This job is very stressful. Plus I’m a traveler. I get 2 days of orientation at a new place then I’m expected to function. I get just a few days to pack & move… So do I have stress? A lesser person would run screaming.
You think sometimes with depression, how would things be different if you were never born. I have to nip this thinking in the bud. I know with my job that there are multiple people who are alive today because of me. I remember 6 years ago, I was having an absolutely horrible week. I had just gotten written up because I had so many absences from work that year (something like 6 incidences because of my migraines). I was at McDonalds getting some fries to eat because that’s the only thing besides peanut butter & crackers that I wasn’t throwing up. A lady I didn’t recognize came up to me, told me that I had been her dad’s nurse and told me thank you for caring for him. I don’t remember what I said to her. I’m not even sure I’d recognize her face if I saw her again. But I remember how she made me feel as if I mattered right when I needed it most.
What I accomplished yesterday:
- I got up in time to go to my drug screen for work.
- I survived getting there, the clinic being closed, & being patient while my company rerouted me to another clinic for my drug screen.
- I only cried once.
- I texted my dad.
- I managed to level 3 pets during my pet battle dailies. Arctic Fox Kit, Nordrassil Wisp & Amethyst spiderling.
- I raided Flex with my guild and killed Garrosh for the first time..